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I've been anticipating today for the past few months, really. :)
Well maybe my main motive is yea, buy stuff and do shopping haha but what i really like the most is the feeling i get upon returning back to where i came from.

You can say for me, its an escapade from everything. I usually do things on my own here, which i actually dont really mind.
Although this time, RYOMA AND SHAUN are COMING! Not only that, theyre staying with me in my condo with no parents around hehehe. Sadly, there is nothing in my condo unit yet LOL

Sigh.. 4 Days, shopping everyday. Or should i try to save some $ and not be an impulse buyer, hmm.. Ah well, im excited :) I think i should be, as long as Ryoma doesnt get too serious, grumpy, tired or have little arguments with me hahah. Ah~

Everytime i get back. I think and look back about Singapore. My life there, my friends there. And at times, i actually just wanna let it all go and start anew. (So Sorry) Even when things all seemed nice and all, im just not satisfied. e.g school, friends, environment etc.
Ah well, i suppose everything in life isnt perfect. Learn to put up with it. i will.
:D

Till the next time.

WOAH ; Latest post

Life is either always too perfect for me..

or when it does, i question its perfection

and when that happens, i start to see things more clearly :)

From being in year 12..

From friends, old friends, bestfriends even

I know whats important and whats not

though the hardest thing is actually carrying out

Perhaps what was then will not be tomorrow..

This is not an emo post, i just wanted to reflect on something meaningful and something i must learn as time goes by.

School and friends and bestfriends do make my day

My birthday is coming up, my party is planned, and for the first time in my life, im saving my $ to pay for my room and expenses

zomg haha

Otherwise, all i could do is take loans which is baad baaad

Ah well There we go, to pass time, facebook chatting with seo ro lee can be quite amusing hahaha

Uh?

Immature drama, thought to be a bestfriend.

Hope it'll all resolve tomorrow.

But then, we'll never look at you the same again. Sorry, the clock cannot be rewinded.

And you thought this blog was dead.

So much has happened, that i cant remember what happened between the last post and now. But to be honest, i see myself growing up. Moving into the next phase of life.
From captaincy, to thoughts and realisations, mm hmm, i have learnt/learning to control thoughts and how things should be approached.

Right now, i am feeling something. Something that is seriously terrible, cold, but then, im not thinking too much into it. I will now live with it, my usual psychological ways of getting over things and optimism will help alot.

Can't help but thank my so many workshops and experiences i had that contributed to me, today.
This will sound gay, but it all kinda went away when i went to see my usual chinese and korean clothes website HAHA. Its all so nice, and cheap. Thats perhaps my escape, just to look at it, want it, but don't know/don't have the means to get it. A good thing, because if i did, it would generate into a newfound problem.

Sigh, moving on, a workshop on friday better had made some ppl learn something.
If u wanna be happy in life, Be yourself (No problems)
Think the opposite to remain optimistic (no problems)

:D
I suppose as usual, whatever im feeling now will go away in a few days, mm hmm, its me. :)

Success.

Geography assignment was due on wednesday at 8.30 am. During the 5 day break, all i did was watch hangover with nayak, went out with Bruce and eric for G.I Joe and 1 other thing, cant remember lol. The rest WAS WORK! Argh. Well, On wednesday ; caroline adam sarita and i handed in our projects at recess.
WE were awarded 0, HURRAY! Because we didnt know it was due by 8.30.
bleh, theyre having some trial now to determine whether if we can be pardoned. So court like.

So! thursday! I went out with someone in the morning.. shit. OH OH! With daphne pailin and eric to have lunch and do business at Shokudo city hall. Productivity was minimal. Sigh.

Evening time! Lil reunion with pri sch mates. The catch up was extremely fun and heartwarming. Ankit is visiting from yokohama and we final found KYSTAL AKI MIZOGUCHI and she came as well. Awkward much but yea she'll get the hang of it lol.
Fish & Co till 9ish and then home.
TO DO BRT. Slept at 3am.
So friggin stressful. Not forgetting i did do my eng, chinese and math revision after lol

IPT NOW! Assesment due in 2 weeks, right now only captaincy speech to worry bout bleh.
Philip georgi emma and i in one table, work was never part of the lesson hahaha

Adieu! Daphnes house later. i need to destress
no clubbing, no money and its a bit too.. boring

Till then! Photos up late.

White.

"Papa can i go into the hotel/tourism industry"
Papa: SHAKES HIS HEAD CRAZILY*

I walk away.. and asked why again, he was still at it HAHAHA

Tht thought flashed when i was in the shower. Since i like people, and i like talking and i like changes bla bla, i thought hmmm. Ah well i suppose not =/

WHITE PARTY PHOTOS! IT WAS AMAZING! But it was a day after 'the bad things' (refer to previous post) Sigh.. At times i would just sit alone and stare into space, tried to get into my whole mood to distract myself, but fail. Nevertheless, it was tiring yet the place was AMAZING. Woahh :) [thanks michelle for the 'made in china' american sunnies hahaha ] :)

Ah well. Maybe watching Hangover with nayak and some others tmr then home straight away. Intense lessons for the next 4 days if possible. I need it for math then the remaining time shall be squeezed for my major tasks SHIT. Plus exercise routine/diet control etc.

I suddenly miss thailand. I love thailand im proud to be thai and i cant wait to return! Sometimes i wonder if i care about reputation more than comfort. Like,

Where did u graduate from? "Bangkok" = HAHAHAH wtf? or Tokyo = Wow...

Argh, 1 more year. Alr into the 4th week of term 11. It felt like yesterday that i was watching captaincy speeches in year 10. Wow.

Sigh~ Time sure flies as i said, when you actually have alot of tasks and stuff that you get preoccupied with. Social bit you definitely have to sacrifice. Though one good thing about singapore is that you see friends everywhere! i bumped into 6 people today! weee ahaha k whatever.

And korean ice cream recommended by bruce tasted like korean toothpaste with milk. EEE

K whatever, goodnight :)

And then there were 3

6 Days since the last post, felt long.. So many things has happened. Alot.
Ryoma has officially left, and only talked once since he left due to the different time zones and i dont wanna 'bomb' him on fb. Ah well, wish him all the best in Spain :)
Well, that period was perhaps the saddest.
I'm the type who is always cheery, know how to control feelings and where to focus them on, optimistic. But it came to me, but i hid it sooo deep so one knew.
Like yixins aunt, my aunt commited suicide and passed away. Like a day before Ryoma left or smth. Wow.. It did hit me, but not when my mum sat there and told me it.
She went to thailand because 'my grandmother was in hospital' but in actual fact, for her funeral.. Lies!

Sighh, i dont think about it much now, i kinda do have that emptiness in my heart feel kinda when ithink of her.. Like u know how someone is gone. Is gone. OMG AAA. It did get to me for a day then being myself, let go :) ; Thanks to writing this im thinking again. Like seriously she was like a ME, except as an aunt haha. Sighh thanks for everything. I LOVE YOUUUU. Rest in peace "BA ARAI JA!" I called her that when iwas young. Meaning PEEK-A-BOO AUNT! hahah aww :(

Well, late late late photos of that final week(andreas left too), From playing with ryoma tammy & johnson (tennis) to making pumbas fake id and bumping into nerea and stuff, daphnes birthday, ryomas final day with me, great deep talk we had at bakerzin. Good times, it feels so long ago but it isnt. I suppose when you have close friends, you seriously just want to stick to them. Theyre the ones that you can actually rely on, or talk to, be yourself bla bla. Times of sucking up, superficiality etc are long over, for me.
Though close/best friends are hard/very hard to comeby, if one is made, never lose contact, even if contact is lost, the memories they have given you are priceless and to be remembered for life when reflected upon. :)

Perhaps when too many things happened and your kept at a very very packed schedule sometimes.. you know..
Right know, 5 day holiday am i supposed to be happy? YES! I got SO MUCH due next week, i dont know,do i think im able to finish it? Yes. I think lol.

Skipped school again for the 3rd straight week on a friday. This time with bruce hahaha. We hung out and ate at ion. Yumm, i recommended him my favourite desserts (as usual) and he was going gaga over it HAHA. As usual. Though i was going Flab flab after. Fml. so much oily foods and i gained bak 3-4kg OMG i just realised zzz, ARGH. Nvm :) Shall lose soon, im only 16~
Better vanity comes at a later age when you come afford it hehe

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RUNNING FOR INTERNATIONAL CAPTAIN!
Jasmine just sent a facebook thread to all warning us that teachers might check our facebook, and our photos. I just reset some of my settings as a safety precaution, just in case :)
Daym, i want INTL CAP.! :))))
And guess what 'Bangkok Brat' is not allowed so im now 'Thai Prince' lol -.- im so cool
k whatever.

I got the badass look now. I just made erics younger sister cry. ON THE SPOT! hahaha! omg wow. Its ok, i like my image mwahehe.
Sigh my final night for relaxing. The next few days shall be focused mainly on my major assesment tasks and my math. Once al those i over, MY CAPTAINCY SPEECH! OMG SHIT hahah

Alrite good night :)

The 'giant' idol AHAH

Bye leaver peevers

And then there were 3 =.=

Last day at mine lol

waaa johnsen ahhh

Sex.

Sex x2

Sex + Blob x3

NICOLETTE!

Helloo

Rewinded Back To Tuesday

Ah~ Its the last week, the last tuesday, It comes in the blink of an eye..
Well, for the last time, Went out with Ryoma after school after i went home to get changed and i do not know what i was doing that i ended up so late, sorry =/

CREPES! As usual, and he didnt want to give me any hahaha.
Issit me or what that i just can't seem to really remember what happened after, OH YEA! walked around Ion :DD window shopping, picking out what we'd want and just sigh in disappointment after when we just saw the prices lol
Takashimaya after! Then bought some jappo snacks and i ate at Yoshinoya.
My mum was coming bak from Bangkok that night so i could dine out!

Met up with linda at Cine and went to E2max to watch 'I pronounce you chuck & Larry' ; a funny movie haha, good old times in e2maxx :)
Linda had to leave after a bit, and thereafter, rushed home with Ryoma after cus his dad was home and will get pissed, which he did. Sounds short? Yeap, its the lasttt tuesday, unfortunately.

Ouhhh

Good morning! Its 8:08 and im soooo tired and sleepy!!
Ive really got to try sleeping earlier, like 9.30? haha thats why Tom shot up TALLER THAN ME. I've got 2-3 years left in the growth spurt periods so i BETTER Sleep more soon and change my habits.
At least i just have to get through the first 2 periods today. Business & Math argh.
Should i drop to general math? nahhh

"Let me hold you.. for the last time.. its the last chance to feel again"
Broken Strings - James Morrison & Nelly Furtado. Luv eet

I NEED COFFEE, But we're out of hot water and milk. Bleh
School WEEK B AGAIN, here i come.
1 year and 3 more months till the end of it all..

In the middle of everything.

I'm still not used to seeing myself in reflections, gosh i look rounder, fatter, emptier.
Ah wells, grow back soon, though i reaaally enjoy not having to style my hair in the mornings that sometimes take up to 30mins ( sometimes late for sch ; shhh ), Less shampoo, hair just dries in 2 mins, and if u run, you pour water over your head, yea. :DD

So! Ion orchard opens! Went to B4, food paradise.. I LOVE IT haha, With somi and Hye Jin on Thurs, walked around then left after a while.
Friday! Shit i cant remember, ummmm OHHHHHH hahaha, i went to Sim lim, brought people there ; the tour guide as usual :D then back to Spring Bloom to wait for Bruce & Eric & Went to chomp chomp after to eat, i ate the most when its usually the other 2 that sometimes eats more than me =.=
Home. Early. :)

Saturday! I've been waiting for TOOO long for today haha. Finally, we got to catch up again, the usuals from the good ole days, its been a few months but when we meet, it seems like we just saw each other too recently. Ahh that feeling~ Francis' girlfriend came along, its pretty funny how shes like "DONT CUT YOUR CHICKEN WITH YOUR SPOON" Fierce. hahaha, Ah~ Occupied with their busy lives with their final years in the 'uniform chapter' of school
Walked around ion, i dontmind the crowd and noise and all, im used to it and i LIKE it actually, serious. haha. lunched @ Breeks, Taka. The USUAL again :)
Lindas camera made it all look fun and happy ; and it was, its been quite a while since ive laughed hard, and continuously for quite a while..
So they had to go, JJ and linda waited for Ryoma with me. And then he got approached by Pull & Bear for 'Stylish people in Singapore' ; ryoma was astonished HAHA. His blue skinnies i think are really nice, sad i still have got kilos to shed.
So! Went to see The indos ; linda. HAhahaha shes so retarded, tht lil hamburger.
Ryoma was all CHILLO as usual HAHAHA ; Water vs Fire.
Then linda left aww. Walked around with ryoma, good 1 on 1 time, its only 5 days until he says goodbye.. Sigh.. No bestfriend in Singapore anymore :(
But! we promised to keep in contact fora very very long time, and im always good at that, its just him. Water. So this friday.. Its coming soon, and ive already started on my project for his goodbye present :), its what i usually do anyway heee.

OH Singapore, let it allllll end now and send me somewhere new, i just DONT feel at home here, AT ALL. Bangkok? :) haha. Liverpool 5 Singapore 0 HAHAHAH, pathetic, i love thailand, 1 -1 yeaaaa. K that kinda spoiled the 'goodbye' mood

Tues and thurs! Left. :(

I shall spoil it again and say.
white party @ supperclub saturday HAHA shitt
And i dont know if its rude to go to zirca for a birthday party after sending Ryoma off, its guna be saddd, but im seeing it as a let go. :) ; not fully
Ah i love my mindset.

Omg. ?

Guess what.
I've removed my hair. Woahhhhhhh
I actually like it, its refreshing, except.. Its hard to get the right clothes and shit, dammit.
And i want contact lenses now so i'd look scary. HAHA
Ah wells, Started off ytd after school to Ichiban sushi for tempura ice cream and some food with Bruce eric miki kayo eliza ellen, extreme regulars now. Supposed to ion orchard after, DAMMIT I SHOULDVE GONE! ANd dragged ryoma all the way down just to accompany him back home. Well not really, to my hairdresser LOL. There.. They did the killing on my head, especially Ryoma. So scary when he does it, and he still wanted to go on when it was short enough. If he MADE ME A SKIN HEAD. He'll not be forgiven until my hair grows back :)

In school today, i tried to avoid ms vink, but suprisingly she didnt say anything, i expected lunch..
Ms lawless came to me, and went
"Why did you get this haircut, you think this is appropriate for school? what does it mean?"
i got back at her "Yea i see it on th streets, and ppl dont have it in school because they dont dare get one, and yes ms vink didnt say anything about it, and oh sorry ive gotta go now, so maybe she'll see me later?" Then she just gave me a stare and byee asswipe.

Lets not talk about my hair anymore, or maybe i should, UGH i still have moments of shock whn i look into reflections HAHAHAH, seriously!! ITs like ive still got hair.. until..
And apparently i look violent and scary now, and its true, i went to buy my charger alone at bugis just now, And ppl stared at me and i looked bak, they looked away in that not say fearful BUT UMPH just tht scared look kinda u know hahaha, k nvmmmm, so funny i actually laughed.
$50 gone to charger WAA :(

Anywaysss, first period free tomorrow, i was supposed to revise for japanese, math and english but i hate computers, they just get me stuck here for as long as i can stand, argh.
Good night! Hair will grow back soon.
More hair rubbing, what ball i am debate and how ugly/nice it looks to be continued toorrow.
Goodnight.
I miss my hair (10% only though) :(
Aww, why do all good things come to an end

When we're showing off 'sexy' in a rebellious way, woo

Before he gets 'tracked' as well

Still in my minor shock period

Mad withastein

I took this photo, i like it, it brings out the gay baby in him HAHAHAH

Le Weekando

=============Jacksons birthday on Saturday!
- After Being indecisive the night before discussing plans for Sat with Ryoma, we decided to go with ze flow, bleh.
WE Went in bluee woo euuu haha ; Ryoma firs came over to borrow blue stuff from me. Im in love with blue blue blue now haha ; when everyone was dressed pretty formally, at least we didnt go in tees and stuff :). Vest night, i did my research because plans were Attica, until it got changed to Zirca cus attica opens at too late a time.
Forbidden city before. Jake,Zain Andreas etc, why hello.
I suppose another vest of mine is lost, to Jake hahah, lent it to brendan then to jake Ah well, at least its not those expensive ones pfft.

Got pretty quietly awkward at first, soo attempted to find somewhere/something new with Ryoma haha, My current sugar daddy >:) $$$ LALAL. Fail. So Zirca. Rebel. Zirca. Rebel. Macdonalds. Rebel. Zirca. And bottles were opened, drank a bit. Woooooo i got perfectly drunk. 2 or 3 more drinks and i would start puking again LOL. It was a greaaaaaaaat night. As usual, on the podium again on the dance floor hahah.

Ahhh, a great night. Thanks Jackson for the bottles & Ryoma for being le suga daddy & Conelly for saving my glasses when it came off and i couldnt see it, shittt hahaha
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SCHOOL STARTED TODAY! I WAS SUPPOSED TO STAY HOME AND ONLY RETURN TMR. BUT DJLVNDBV; NO. Conelly texted me afte ri forced myself up saying we're not shaving anymore, ugh, too late went to school. Everyone thought i had swine cus im supposed to only g bak to school on friday haha. 5 new students. 1 who looked like emma brockton. Well lots of ppl say, and yea the hair and everything hahah oh welll

It drained me today, and i had come to realise the burden of the 2 BIG assesment tasks i had on hand. Geography and Business sTudies. Everythings coming to me, but i think its a bit too late. I wanted to buck up and do better this term, but shit i think there'll be too much. _l_ it.
Kent is back, hahaha from year 12.
"Is he stupid or what?" - Eric J HAHA
Double Business tmr. Double geog (relaxed). Math.(Eew.) Free!
THEN OUT OUT OUT TMR! FOr tempura sushi with bruce and eric and maybe kayo miki. And of course, dear Prince of tennis haha.
Then bugis with the prince after, he 'NEEDS' a new clubbing shirt thats just guna be for 2 more nights or smth. =.= REDUCE, REUSE RECYCLE! (coming from me.. LOL)

Bitch im tired, i took a nap and now im still sleepy. GUNA SLEEP SOON.

[You do realise that on my blog now, theres no more gossips and bitchings about people]
Told u im nice now :) hahaha
Night.

Post-Bangkok Photos

Photos from last week.

Been nearly a week, from the comfort of a bed with the view of the city skyline, to back in my humble abode, in my living room ; hugging my funky coloured pillow.
Haha. It sucks to be back, i was so pissed off on the first 2 days, but then i thought of HARRY POTTER! Ryoma saved me because Emma couldnt make it last minute. (=.=)
I couldnt sleep the night before, i mean i could but i woke up quite a few times heh, but after the movie. (Im a huge fan btw since i was a lil boy) i was happily PISSED OFF. Bitch. Fuck. Shit. Movie. Argh. K lets not talk about it =)
"Don't talk about it boyy" - Lyrics from Go Girl Pitbull just had to play tht line when i typed that line haha.

Etude Le Solitude

Colbie Cailat - Battle / Fergie - Glamorous / Diana Krall - The Look of Love

The best bed in the world kept me sleeping until Poko came knocking on my door the wake me up big time lol.
Lied around and listened to music as i wondered what i should do today since i'm left all alone for the day :)

So! I wore my new clothes and headed off, i took 2 hours to get ready, slackingaround, drinking water, some tv heh. New blue shoes so cool! OUCH! When i got to the station i already had blisters and i thought it would be nice to go over to emporium to get some plasters, boy it sure didnt help. Grabbed some brunch on the WAY BACK. Yes, i returned home to change my shoes and showered and changed again haha

This time! No pain, but it was sooo much in the shower, aaa
Went to siam! And walked to platinum AGAIN, i wanted to comb everything but i got so tired after only 4 floors ; so little mens t shirt. But i ended up with a cool cardigan-sweater thingy and shit i forgot LOL

MBK after got nothing, siam paragon for some food downstairs i brought home, alll fattt guilty deserts and coconut milk(s). Faaat.
Went to J Avenue nearby for Dinner at Yura An, as usual spotted many celebs and socialites, i love J avenue :P heeeeeeee. Thats alllll, tomorrow going bak to aunties house aww and mummys coming bak from grandmas house out in the country mate.

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Late nights blogging on a nice comfy bed with special 'late night moods bossa' cd playing, its just so warm and nice :)
Maybe i actually dont mind being lonely and alone, if i could stay, sighh lol
I spose not! :(
GOODNIGHT!

Late night city skyline

Song: Julie London - Fly me to the moon / Keri Hilson - Crossroads / Jason Mraz - Lucky

Its late late at night, im lying on my bed blogging, with smooth comforting beats that complements the whole feel and ambience right now. The City Of Life, Bangkok. Don't i get sick of it? No. Just talked to Ryoma while watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix just now, after being soooo away and busy and gone for so long, finalllyyyy its bak to the same. Though one day he was just 2 mins away, ah well.

Its 1am here, 2am SG time, i suppose many of us just reflects upon the day and everything at this point of time. Life back here has always or should i say been lonely, i dont mind it. I am happy, all of my family are here, the whole 'back at home' environment never fails to welcome me, The self reflection i make upon myself seeing how extremely fortunate i am compared to many others. Only 100,000 in thailand are millionaires out of the 65 million population. That is.. wow, im very lucky. In singapore, everythings so confined, so perfect, so superficial, shallow. Here, genuinity, sincerity (sexual stuff is in our blood), hahah k whatever, and arrogance is rarely seen. I dont wanna go back, i love The city here, the diversity it offers, and maybe if i actually dont return. I would actually just cut contact with most bak there, harsh, but yes i dont mind. At all.

If i went to school here.. I would be having the best of friends now
If i lived here...I would have become a better person
If i stayed here...The pain can be easily overcomed by shopping and dining therapy LOL, what a spoiler.

Sigh.. Staying in a french themed estate amidst bangkok really adds to the whole heavenly feel.

I have got the biggest geog and B.S projects i have to start on once i get back. But HARRY POTTER comes first, craaap.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE-------------------------------------
I went shopping with jub today. Started at platinum and went over to chatuchak.
The bag at the end of the day was well over 20kg and i was dragging this massive rice sack bag home onto the train. I dont even think its that much, other than shorts, which were fucking cheap so i basically lost control. Again, craappp.
Lunched indian food and chinese food fusion, and dinner was at home, ordered in.

I just yawned, perhaps its time for me to sleep. Goodnight! There was wayyy too much walking today, but nevertheless, i never complain. :D
Sawadeekrap